Author: Goinstrong

Posted: Thu Dec 27, 2012 6:59 am

So I am sitting here reading your whole story, well, the whole thread, and nodding along, like I was typing it or something.
It’s funny that the thing that jumped out at me was "the boredom is the thing that kills me, I need to quit isolating"
That is SO TRUE for me. Idle hands are the devils playground, my grandmother used to say. It doesn’t matter what you
do. Just do SOMETHING productive and positive. I know for me that when I am bored, I get depressed, I start to lay
around, not get out of pajama pants all day, not eat, etc… So the sooner I catch myself, the better off I am.

I have a really hard time during the holidays, not seeing my daughters, or talking to them. Every year I relapse. This year…
I DIDN’T!!!!! Don’t get me wrong, I started the isolating, and the dedpression was kicking in. But there was no way in helll
that I was going to stop my sub, and start using again. This was the first time in a long time, that I thought about using though.
My family sucks for support. Not all of them, but most of them. I’m pretty much on my own here with my little man.
I dont get any help, and quite frankly, I’m sick of the shit. I know he is my responsibilty, but the phrase "it takes a village to
raise a child" didn’t just come out of thin air. It came about because back in the day, families helped each other.
Not mine.

Anyway, just wanted to say that I can relate to your story, and that I did enjoy reading it. Thank you for being so open and
honest with us. Ihope that your holidays were wonderful! Take Care~ Kelly

Author: Goinstrong

Posted: Thu Dec 27, 2012 6:59 am

So I am sitting here reading your whole story, well, the whole thread, and nodding along, like I was typing it or something.
It’s funny that the thing that jumped out at me was "the boredom is the thing that kills me, I need to quit isolating"
That is SO TRUE for me. Idle hands are the devils playground, my grandmother used to say. It doesn’t matter what you
do. Just do SOMETHING productive and positive. I know for me that when I am bored, I get depressed, I start to lay
around, not get out of pajama pants all day, not eat, etc… So the sooner I catch myself, the better off I am.

I have a really hard time during the holidays, not seeing my daughters, or talking to them. Every year I relapse. This year…
I DIDN’T!!!!! Don’t get me wrong, I started the isolating, and the dedpression was kicking in. But there was no way in helll
that I was going to stop my sub, and start using again. This was the first time in a long time, that I thought about using though.
My family sucks for support. Not all of them, but most of them. I’m pretty much on my own here with my little man.
I dont get any help, and quite frankly, I’m sick of the shit. I know he is my responsibilty, but the phrase "it takes a village to
raise a child" didn’t just come out of thin air. It came about because back in the day, families helped each other.
Not mine.

Anyway, just wanted to say that I can relate to your story, and that I did enjoy reading it. Thank you for being so open and
honest with us. Ihope that your holidays were wonderful! Take Care~ Kelly