Author: Amy-Work In Progress
Posted: Mon Dec 24, 2012 2:32 pm
Scorpiotl, please stop beating yourself up! Most people who have been on this forum for any length of time end up telling their whole story. One of the great things about telling your story here is that we totally get it. We understand the roller coaster ride that is addiction. If no one had an immediate response to your story, it’s not because we don’t care about you. It’s because we understand it so well that we are not startled into answering right away. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but I want you to feel safe venting here. People do care.
I’m glad you’re seeing a therapist because you have some areas to work on. The co-dependency and low self-esteem are major stumbling blocks to recovery. I’m so glad you have a supportive fiance! It would be good for her to attend a couple of your therapy sessions or some alanon meetings. People don’t automatically come with a built-in set of instructions on how to best help addicts. She could learn, for example, how to handle it when you slip-up or how to help you avoid triggers.
I believe that every human being is important and worthy of love. I also believe that God also loves you unconditionally. I love Romeo’s signature quote: Our character defects do not define who we are! Keep working at it! Keep striving for your goals and learning from your mistakes.
Amy